"Why do our best intentions often lead to the toughest challenges in life?"

Why? ...

We often ask ourselves that question, don't we? Why? Why does this happen to me? Why is this happening? Why? Why? Why?... hmmm, even though I am feeling that way right now, it sounds (or reads) a bit pathetic, doesn't it? I mean, why the hell not! I'm human, just like everyone else. So, why the hell not me.

The best intentions can often lead us to experience some of our toughest challenges... why, do you ask? (you're allowed to ask that here). Well because sometimes walking through our toughest challenges, can often bring us to something beautiful! That is what I am choosing to believe. Hope! Without hope, there is nothing. Without love, there is nothing.

So, when you are too are walking through your toughest challenges, choose love. Love yourself, and others through that journey, and hold onto hope that you will make it through the other side to something beautiful. To a moment, a place, an experience that was made just for you!!! Believe that, and you can make it through anything.

My best intentions to love and care for those in my life, and not focussing on things I should have more closely, led me to right now. A tough year financially...and yes, it tastes awful. It sits heavy on my shoulders, just like an ill-fitting jacket... something you can't wait to shake off. That's how I feel. I find myself in this position, and fearcely hoping for better days where I don't have to count pennys, or choose between visiting a doctor or putting food on the table. However, I know I am here due to choices I made, ones that I would probably choose to make again (crazy I know) but with intentions of being smarter, more diligent when I should, and enjoying the financial freedom at the same time.

Right now, I am tearful for where I am at. I know it is my own doing, but I am allowing myself to shed a tear or two, to feel it deeply knowing that tomorrow I will pick myself up and keep moving forward. There is no other option for me, being a sole single parent...I choose to do better, be better every day for me and for my baby girl.

But for tonight my friend, I am here writing this short story with the best of intentions to write out how I am feeling, put thoughts onto the page and share them with you, my friend, to say "you are not alone, I am not alone, we all experience moments like this at times and it is going to be okay"... Thank you for reading this far, thank you for choosing to be better and do better in your own life, you are worthy of great things, amazing moments and lots of love and laughter. Believe in yourself, and hold onto hope that tomorrow will be a better day!

We've got this!!!